ARGH.

 

Its official. i hate photoshop. in 3d class now and im stuck on making the line look nice for the red wagon. laugh at me, im still trying. i’ve tried 6-7 times? it’s all almost there but it just wont fit in perfectly. like how im not fitting in in class, yeah. stupid sia. i know how to do EVERYTHING EXCEPT THAT STUPID LINE. ARGHHHH. but i wont give up. i shall try try try! if you fail to succeed, try try again.~ bye.

Confusion.

i dont know what im doing with my life. im dreading school nowadays because i feel invisible. and being invisible sucks. though i think i may have an arguable reason as to why im invisible in class, well, sometimes things are just too much. just because i do things you people dont, must that make you afraid of me? does my presence really instil fear or a need to avoid me inside you? well if it really does, the least you can do is tell me. i can just transfer course or something. although im only JUST beginning to enjoy DDM, the people surrounding me aint making me feel at home. how do i enjoy school if i dont enjoy the atmosphere? A house can only be a home if it corruscates the light of warmth and serenity. but i’ve decided. lonely or not, im going to continue studying in a polytechnic due to a few reasons. k let’s just end this topic here shall we?

on an even more down note, today is my late dad’s bday. happy birthday dad. i miss you. but i know you’re still watching over me. i know you’ll guide me through thick and thin and be there for me when i need an answer to any dilemma,  just like how you always did when you were still around. i love you so much. al-fathihah.

i wish none of this had happened. =X